On Course

I was on course yesterday at Pasir Ris Pr with other heads. Was so surprised to see some familiar faces. I met Rita. We were once teaching together at Jin Shan Pr as BT. That was really way way.... way back. Donkey years ago before I actually moved to the east. I met Rita again I remembered when we were doing our SIM course. But the surprise was meeting Sharifah Thalha from EVSS. We hv both moved on to other school. But she has definitely changed physically, since being a mother of 2. She looked so different that I couldn't recognised her. But so glad that she recognised me and called me. I also met Faridah from EVSS and surprisingly she acknowlwedge me and even remember my name. But I must say she looked good.

On the professional side, the people I met made more impact on me that the topic of the course. I just couldn't focus on the presentation. Maybe the venue, as we were placed at the end of the hall. They grouped us according to alphabet.. Zhenghua .. naturally last just like Zarina.

At the end of the course we planned to go to Opera Estate Pr to visit a favourite VP but too bad he was out of school. Another time then.

I want a new life.

Things have been tough.. real tough.

But no matter how tough things have been, the physical aspect I can endure. I am used to slogging my time , my energy for work or anything.
But I am a loser. I succumb to things that affects my emotions.

Here I am in my own space and time, I reflect on things that had been happening, I can feel the emptiness and the hollowness of my heart. This is when I get teary eyed.

I pray that I do not become like u..

I pray that I do better in my role as compared to u.

I pray that those dear to me do not have to go through what I am going thro now...

Dear God,

help me go through this and play my role with sincerity so that i will not feel shortchanged for all the things that I have done.

show me that there is a silver lining in every cloud that hovers around my shoulder.

let me be strong emotionally so as I do not drown myself in my tears.

End of semester

Briefly:

It's coming to the end of semester.. so fast yet so much still to do especially with my sec 4. I feel so disappointed with myself that I have to blast at them like that. i like some of them. In fact I love them except for the few who have no place for FN.. everyday they make me pissed when they choose to be defiant. Everytime I see them at the library, they are scanning thro a story book or the National Geographic. So much free time right yet no priorities for other subjects that are not done.

Kalau anak aku....,

Give work choose not to do and then want me to stay overnite with them.. which I doubt they wil do my work.

I sometimes wonder why I even bother .. but yet every year like that .. say only but still will bother about them. I care too much for them as I feel like I owe it to them to make sure that they do well and I have tried as best as I could.

Other aspects of work still a lot to do with big events coming in Sem 3... wth.. it is so necessary...

Somehow I'm just glad that I have very few working with me to perk my day..

Home:

I had my kenduri at Tiara Pelangi and it was good to see people making effort to make their presence at my hse. Really appreciate them. Simply session. Hubby booked a bus to ferry the ple across the causeway which I felt was so costly. But after listening to his reasonings, it was reasonable. So much preparations done. I bought for the women a brooch as a token and the men got a sarong. We oorder food from the nearby stall called Sedap Selalu meaning always nice.. and the food live up to expectation.

After that my sis brought my mum back to kL .. thankful that I got some relief for my deafening ears of nagging.

Last week I fetch my mum from KL after 3 weeks without her at home. Somehow going back to the original 5 of us at home is just ... nice. Tho I have to rush back to prepare a decent dinner at home it is still nice. It was ashort trip to KL and the objective was mainly to collect the good and go.. so bad right. But we also managed to enjoy a Subway sandwich at Pavilon. Subway is not halal here. Wanted to grab a Carls Jr but didnt managed to. I so want to go back to KL just to eat , eat and eat... even a weekend drive will do.I thought that I wont have my passport with me this week so I had to fetch her last week. But alas, I cld have gone this week and enjoy another nice 7 days. But I also appreciate that I had a busy week and that I dont have to rush home to cook.

The week after the kenduri weekend, we had a Malaca trip weekend with in-laws which ened up a failure. It was a weekend holiday and apparently for Malaysians it a first weekend of the month and it a national holiday. So we ended up in a jammed which only take us to outskirts of M'ca. Didn't get to the town as we were de-toured. What a disappointment. Never expect a sort trip to M'ca wld take so long. All we wanted to do was to go the the main shopping center and maybe enjoy some food like Subway.. A&W.. Everybody so tired and disappointed..

But it was my first long drive on my Cerato.. wah best. The funny thing is when I overtake my husband's Cruze, he mentioned it to the girls." oh forgot to tell your mother not to drive like hell driver' And when I overtake the Cruze my son who was with me said" surely baba will say, why she driving like hell driver." See how they think alike abt my driving skills.. So hilariously funny.

Holidays.. I'll be away for remedial...

2010/3

This year I broke my own record of 0 days of medical certificate (MC). For the past 3 years I have been blessed with good health or can I put it in such a way that tho I have been sick these past few years, I am still motivated to come back to school. To clear as much work as possible.

2010 is the first of many years that I decide it is time to really take care of myself. My health comes first or it just that there are people who just drives me to take MC.

Finally I see the doctor and was advise to take 2 days of MC.

I think my teachers are also shocked. Those who know me well enough, knows that I am a no MC teacher. Students who were taught by me know that I am a 0 MC teacher. There were many instances over the years that students do ask me : Cher, you dont take MC is it?

Well this is the first. Even one teacher sms-ed me and was shocked to find out that I was on MC. The reply I got was; wow.. the iron lady.. on MC.

Yes the time has come. Somehow my gut feeling is that more will be coming.

When you are sick you are sick. When you have to take MC you just have to take MC. Dont die young. Take care of yourself. This was what someone said to me and I finally decide to listen to good advise.

Yay.. to good rest.

2010/2

I decided to post in this blog this year cos I think it would help me release a little bit of tension. I needed to write jus to let off steam. And I naturally thought that the present batch of students would not be aware of the existence of this blog. After all, this blog was created by students who have left the school many years already.

But today I find out the contrary. My blog have been invaded by my 4E5s. Its been such a long time since students actually read my blog. Today they actually found my blog and it was made public during lesson at IT rm 1.

I think I hv to be careful of what I write now.

To all my 4E5 FN students, do keep what you read to yourself.

But let me introduce my 4E5 :

There is Zhuanghao.. has a lot of energy but most of it dedicated to tae-kwan-do

There is Zhengyan... very active but only verbally

I have 2 darrens.. Darren Lee and Darren Koh both absent yesterday and today they seemed like best buddies

Wei Juan... lots of carbon-containing parts of the excess amino acids ...lots of them

There is Tze Rong.. he thinks that I am deaf thats why he is always talking so loudly

Then there is Elson.. who always have problem logging in to the com. but he always don't know how come.

Then there is Wei Hao.. who made public this blog.

Today Syakeer is absent and the class will give crappy reasons when u ask them

I have FFF.. Fatin Farhana but i cannot remember the last ..

Then there is Farah and Syafiqah.. all these are my HMT pupils who always have to leave earlier

cos they have to go to BPGH for classes. Apparently since last year the HMT class always

during FN days or remedials.

Then there is Xenia and Dina who are netballers and are busy with tournaments.

Then there is Mian ru and Zanna who are guides and cannot come for remedials on fri.. yes wei juan also say he is in guides...

Then there is Huili i remember that she is from band.

There is also Xiuming who is away from school due to back surgery.

I hope I got everybody.

These are my graduating students who will give me A1 for FN

yes yes yes yeah yeah yeah...

Are u all reading this?

yes yes yes...

2010/1

This would be my first posting for 2010.

4 weeks of school and what can I say... it has been tough.

What do you expect. I have been away sinc eJuly for MLS. I came back for 2 weeks then I was away for Hajj for 4 weeks.

I had problems getting back to work momentum.

And what made it worst was the posting of new people to the school who decide to create an impact on the school, who wants to make their presence felt.

So ...

for the past 3 weeks I have been sitting in meetings that last for 2 hours minimum....

I have been attending SMC meetings that last till 645pm

I have been made to do presentations not because I want to but because they want to...

This is the 4th week of school..

I have 1 hour of meeting with a particular subject teachers, then 2 hours of meeting wrt department continue with 1 hour today.

Another 1 hour meeting with another subject and school training that will last till 6pm.

I have lost my sense of purpose in coming to school...

But what made my day today was an email to say that this week SMC meeting has been cancelled....

YES YES YES YES YES YIPEE YIPEE YIPEE YEA YEA YEA YEA

I am so relieved.

If you are in my shoes, how would you feel?

I met up with my Hajj frens last Saturday.

I miss my hajj days... really. No worries abt anything.

Its just business between you and the Almighty.

Now i am in a MAD MAD world.

2010

Happy New Year....Happy a little bit late New Year..... Not so Happy very late New Year...... Very Not Happy very very late not so New Year................


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