Today in history.
Exactly today, 14 years ago, I was hospitalised because I was about to give birth. Even before the scan was done, both my husband and I knew that it s goin to be a girl.I had been hospitalised for 2 days. I had all the contraction pains but yet she refused to make her entry into this world. Too comfortable in her mummy's womb. That explains why she is so stubborn. That's what I was told. No wonder. Yah . So they decide to let me go home. Then my husband came to fetch me home bringing along Khairi. But NO WAIT. Cannot go home yet. The gynae said cannot. So must be induced. So my husband had to sent Khairi back to Goma's house. True enough, I gave birth 5 hours later and 1 husband shirt torn. Pain OK. She was born bigger than her brother, her eyes bigger than her brother. Her eyes are still big in fact bigger than anyone else but luckily she is not bigger than her brother.
She has really been a joy to all around her, especially her parents. When we decide to name her Nurul Nadia, everybody goes WAH.... nice name. But now. it seems like everybody has that name. But I really like to hear her father calls her 'Nadine'. I always tells my husband that she is his "jewel".
She has always been so 'touchy' since small. Everything she wants to touch and everything she destroy. She has a special way of sitting when she was small. The feet facing outwards yet so comfortable.
So today she turns 14. Well, if young she wants to touch everything, at this age, she wants to do everything. At 14, not yet. Well can't blame your parents right. We care and are very concern with the development of our children. Both duniawi and ukhrawi. The company that our children go with, the things that they do. Tatatertib, akhlak everything.
My mum used to say that I would only know what it feels like to worry for your child until you are a mother yourself. I know now. I know that I only hope that I can give the best to my children. I always tell the young mothers, small different problem, teenage different problem.. Older also got problem..
So here's a mother's prayer as she watch her little child grow.
I pray that she grows to be a caring and loving person, not forgetting her responsibility to her faith and her family. I pray that she gets what she wants in life.
My children... no matter how slack u are, no matter how much I am pissed.. u r the love of my life.
I feel that ladyluck was really with me yesterday. I left school for a briefing at HQ. As per normal HE sharing is always very boring. First its the talk on eating disorder by HPB then the talk on HHF something abt Holistic health. Then Talk again and talk again by some other school. Wah really mental strain. My mind as a fren put it: Its juz not there. Of course its not there. I have 2 assignments to complete.deadline back to back. Macam nak mampus. Every night stay up to read and re readthe books. But back to the meeting. So after that I went home cos. so shacked. Need to rest for a while. So shower first but must go back to school by 7 latest. But I was late... so late.I drove like a mad woman. Of course my kidz will always say that I always drive like a mad woman. Then I arrive at abt 8 , ran up to the hall, saw Mr. Lim talking. Lucky I saw Kenneth and Nuraini behind. Got a seat behind and tried to catch my breathe. Then suddenly Mrs Yeo was up there talking and she said , I invite all my SMC members to come to the front for the Q & A. Then we all had to come to the front. Wah really so lucky. So so lucky.Juz on time.
After that Linda and May kept asking what happen to me. Why so late?
Better late than never.
Today, still doing my assignment. Shd be able to finish 1 by today. Hope to finish 1 more by tomorrow. I skip my tutorial today becos of this assignment.
But these are not the only things that I hv on my THINGS TO DO list. Wah . The list goes on .. and on..
Must finish. But how to. Must go inlaws house. My mum and gang from Punggol coming to sleep over tonite.
I'm so freaking ..... stressed.
After that Linda and May kept asking what happen to me. Why so late?
Better late than never.
Today, still doing my assignment. Shd be able to finish 1 by today. Hope to finish 1 more by tomorrow. I skip my tutorial today becos of this assignment.
But these are not the only things that I hv on my THINGS TO DO list. Wah . The list goes on .. and on..
Must finish. But how to. Must go inlaws house. My mum and gang from Punggol coming to sleep over tonite.
I'm so freaking ..... stressed.
What makes me upset....
Students who juz don't put in effort in their work. Today is the day of the week that I have 8 periods but no big deal coz almost every other day other teachers are also having 8 or more. But what is so frustrating is that you don't have the facillities to get work done. All the labs are booked either by classes or courses conducted during curriculum time. So no choice use computers in NW rm. Then true enough , they ALL DON"T WORK. Cannot even logged in how to use!!!!! I know my student also fed-up. Musssssst passed up today, then computer sucks..... But as I was looking at the students trying to figure out to make the computer works, its really so funny. Kids now are so bomdarded with Hi-tech equip. IT so latest , up-to-date.. here we are trying to use an ancient equipment that maybe even the karung guni men also dont want. Then they as per normal complaint lah.. so this , so that .. so what else is new.HUH. I juz have to laugh it off. Really like macam Flinstones times.
I stayed up till 6 juz to complete the coursework Part B but then there are students who simply think that they have a choice to come or not to come. Upset right?
Then to topped it all, the leaked air-con. I saw the girl whose book was wet, told me that her book is still wet after 4 days. Well, this is the 7th month, someone must still be pouring water. It goes with the book.
School and students aside....
I went to visit a close friend last night before going for my religious class. He was suffering from stomach cancer but he had an operation way back in 2004 to have his stomach removed. All along he was actually coping, well enough for go to work and to be seen in our regular prayer functions that we had once a month. But for the past 2 months he had not been able to attend the monthly prayers and my husband also learnt that he had not been to work. He had been going through chemo and that really drain him out. I looked how his wife had to helped him in bed and constantly massage his feet as there is water retention and feeling of numbness. It really brings back to sad days when my father , my late father had to go thro' the same process. Sometimes I had to sent him to the hospital and juz feel incapable of doing more. I really feel for both of them as I watch my friend, it reminds me also of what my mum went thro'.Not once, but twice. Brother and father.
I know that God gave us hurdles to overcome in accordance to what he thinks we are capable of. God would not test us more than what we can carry.
What I want really... Give me the strength to accept what YOU think I am capable of. Give me the mind and heart to pray for all to have the strength to accept what YOU gave them as YOU think they are capable of. Amin
Students who juz don't put in effort in their work. Today is the day of the week that I have 8 periods but no big deal coz almost every other day other teachers are also having 8 or more. But what is so frustrating is that you don't have the facillities to get work done. All the labs are booked either by classes or courses conducted during curriculum time. So no choice use computers in NW rm. Then true enough , they ALL DON"T WORK. Cannot even logged in how to use!!!!! I know my student also fed-up. Musssssst passed up today, then computer sucks..... But as I was looking at the students trying to figure out to make the computer works, its really so funny. Kids now are so bomdarded with Hi-tech equip. IT so latest , up-to-date.. here we are trying to use an ancient equipment that maybe even the karung guni men also dont want. Then they as per normal complaint lah.. so this , so that .. so what else is new.HUH. I juz have to laugh it off. Really like macam Flinstones times.
I stayed up till 6 juz to complete the coursework Part B but then there are students who simply think that they have a choice to come or not to come. Upset right?
Then to topped it all, the leaked air-con. I saw the girl whose book was wet, told me that her book is still wet after 4 days. Well, this is the 7th month, someone must still be pouring water. It goes with the book.
School and students aside....
I went to visit a close friend last night before going for my religious class. He was suffering from stomach cancer but he had an operation way back in 2004 to have his stomach removed. All along he was actually coping, well enough for go to work and to be seen in our regular prayer functions that we had once a month. But for the past 2 months he had not been able to attend the monthly prayers and my husband also learnt that he had not been to work. He had been going through chemo and that really drain him out. I looked how his wife had to helped him in bed and constantly massage his feet as there is water retention and feeling of numbness. It really brings back to sad days when my father , my late father had to go thro' the same process. Sometimes I had to sent him to the hospital and juz feel incapable of doing more. I really feel for both of them as I watch my friend, it reminds me also of what my mum went thro'.Not once, but twice. Brother and father.
I know that God gave us hurdles to overcome in accordance to what he thinks we are capable of. God would not test us more than what we can carry.
What I want really... Give me the strength to accept what YOU think I am capable of. Give me the mind and heart to pray for all to have the strength to accept what YOU gave them as YOU think they are capable of. Amin
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