What makes me upset.

I came to school in the morning to find that my cubicle had been flooded. My IKEA boxes are soggy and out of shape. The books in it.. so wet and really so ...very wet. I feel so depressed coz these are my students' books and I hate to return books that have somewhat deteriorated while in my possession. I feel so bad. So I called the 'person in-charge' to get the air-con checked. That is his job scope as he always stressed. He later said that teh air-con men came and could not find the leak and that the air-con was juz 'fine', 'no problem'. But then I said that my books are wet and said " you can also see that right?' cos I placed all my wet stuff sprawled all over my table. Guess what he said. MAYBE SOMEBODY POURED WATER AT MY TABLE. What lame ----!!!!. That's not the end. He also said "THIS IS THE 7TH MONTH"
What is this? I juz could not believe that I actually hear these words coming out of that S----- mouth.

That really makes me upset.

What I want really...... If you got nothing good to say juz don't say anything please. It juz makes people look at you at a new level.

What makes me upset....

Well, apparently, for some when you cannot upload your songs in the MP4 it juz kills you. Then your 'fuse' blows up. For others when you don't get to go for band practice on Saturday and must go for tuition instead. That kills you too. Whatever that kills you, the follow up action is the same. Bang the door, jump on the bed and cry. Then after that live with eyes that looked like kena beat up.

HeHeHe He. So funny.

What I want really...... stop banging on the poor door my children.

My dear husband has not been feeling well for the past few days. The back pain he has been enduring then juz gets too much for him to bear. He walks like his 70 going to 80. Reminds me of his grandmother. So poor thing. So finally he decides to go to the doctor. Then he got a strong dosage of medicine that gives him gastric pain. So pathetic. So we decide that we are going to stay home for the wekend and everybody was like looking forward to juz spending time at home ( juz we family) away from the normal weekend crowd. Then guess what. The in-laws decide to pay us a visit. Wah!! Cannot escape.

What I want really...... juz some weekend space rather than the monotonous family visit.

Don't you juz sometimes feel that you have been taken for granted? You come home feeling so tired, yet when you enter the door, none of the people acknowledge that you are home. Too busy on the computer either blogging or msn or too engrossed with the tv. Then maybe with the volume of the tv and the song playing on the computer both trying to outdo one another, people just can't hear the door.
I remember times when you come home from work your little kids running to you and grabbing u shouting, MAMA........... That of course when they are still very very small and lovable and cute and everything nice.......
Not asking for that of course. Juz a simple Hi Ma. wld juz do.

Today my horoscope says "You're not likely to prevail in any kind of verbal battle. You may only find yourself confused, tongue-tied and disappointed. "

So just listen and absorb. No talk.

Tomorrow: " This is a good day for you to adopt, consciously, a far more positive attitude toward all things. You can influence others for the better. "

I thought that I've been positive so far.

I always think on the positive side: like if I am tired of work, I think of which is a good weekend to go for a weekend drive to M'sia. especially when there are ads. reminding you of the M'sia Mega Sale.
If not I always look forward to the long holiday then can go to a further location.
My dream holiday: Europe or Egypt wld be good and without the children.

Saturday, a very very long Saturday. Woke up early in the morning cos I feel like baking lasagne. Did a little bit of house cleaning also.Then after that made my way to Fajar Sec for the MOE Excel Fest. I was at Fajar as early as 9 am but only to learn that the event will only start at 10.30 in the morning. Can you imagine how I feel having to rush there only to find out that it will only start later. Much later. So what is my role there? To ensure the smooth running of the event especially at Level 2. To also make sure that parents that come have a place to sit in the classroom. Yah right! No need to worry about a place to sit. Plenty of place. Want to baring baring (lie down) also can. So there was the opening ceremony. All the chairman of the cluster school PSG launched the PET rocket. Then after that the performance from Chestnut Drive- STOMP. I enjoy that most of all. Loud and catch music. Then comes the classroom experience. Much much parents are aware of this even cos. these students jus do not relay message from the school to parents to sigh up for these events. Poor thing. Teachers prepare so hard yet the response was only minimal. So probably parents are working. But yet even the afternoon session has poor response. And imagine we had to stay till 4.30 pm.Tired just waiting for some form of audience.Long day right ! Then after that still go visit mother at Ponggol then the in-laws at Tampines.
So shacked. Later that night I told my kids that I'll be up to watch the Germany and Potugal game. Yah I got up alright. Only to move to the lower floor and slump myself back to sleep again. Stupid Nadia kept laughing at me. Told my husband 'Your wife huh, said want to watch soccer huh. come down onlt to sleep downstairs throughout the whole game. blah blah blah" Yah if you had to go through what I went through on Saturday, you would also get knocked out. But I still know the results of the game 3-1 Germany won. Yeah. Portugal deserve to lose. But the game to watch would definitely be the Italy - France game.

I'm really getting over the shock of the recent events in my life. Having griefed oredi, I accept wht happens as a passage in my life. I'm over it. But actually you'll never be over it. There will be times when you think abt it and wonder if it could have been different. But then if things had always been the same then there will be no learning. Learn of your own strength and people's true character. Aniwae, today I'm feeling better.

I come across this phrase ;

I've learnt that just because 2 people argue,that doesn't mean they don't love each other.And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learnt that you can keep going long after you can't.

So very true.