Ring

Earlier this year, my husband and I finally firmed up on plans to go for our pilgrimage. Yes we wanted to go for our haj. So we applied and we got a positive reply form MUIS to say that our application were received and that we are successful in our application. So we made necesary arrangements to prepare oyrselves for this trip. However some 2 months back there were news that the quota for haj this year was trimmed down and some 800++ people will be rejected. A the relevant authorities laid out the various criteria that they would use to select the various successful applicants. One would be those who are first timers for haj. While we wait patiently for our reply there were a lot of hearsays as to whether successful or not. Finally we received our letter. I still remember that day when a fren called me asking me to check my letter box. Apparently her parents already got their reply. I remember clearly how I dared not even open the letter. You know it like receiving your results in the post. And you really want it so much and you hope that when you see is what you want.

But alas when I opened the letter as I read the content to my husband it was a " we regret to inform you" letter. So we were unsuccessful together with some others thatw e know. Yet the relevant authorities say that they will appeal.

We accept the fact that whether we managed to go or not is not dependent on the appeal but on really HIM who wants us to go or not.

A few of my frens however got a call from the relevant authorities to inform them that they have been selected to go due to some reasons or other. We are left with the uncertainty. We have yet to receive any calls.

So its like a very uncertain time. We cant plan for anything as for now. Actually we can but then if we get to go then all plans just stop. But we can also not plan and just wait. Which is just so so frustrating. Receiving more sms abt the matter is also not helping us. Really so helpless.

So it like just waiting for a phonecall.

Yet my frens keep saying "insyaallah.. " and like "lagi ada masa".

So I'm like still waiting and waiting. I would probably stop waiting only when I say goodbye to those who are really leaving at the airport.