No:27

I will forgive BUT do not think that I will forget.

And because I am who I am, it is hard for me to go back to how things were before.

I can forgive all the things that u do to me! But dont ask me things like ;

why am I not like what I used to be 2 years ago. Even when things have been thrashed out, all matters cleared why am I still so distance?

Let me tell u that you are the last person that I expect to treat me the way you did.

But I forgive you cos you become super sensitive when you grow older.

But I cannot forget how I was treated like dirt in your own home.

You tell me abt how you feel when you were at my house.

Did you even hear the words that you are saying.

Thats what you did to me. yet when it happen to you you do not even realise.

However I do beg to differ cos I am not like you. I am NOTHING like you.

I do not treat you like the way you treat me. I know my role as a host.

I will never do the things that you accuse me of.

But what is the point of arguing with old sensitive people.

So what do you want with me now?

You want me to show kemesraan again to you.

You want me to be the old Zarina.

And you think it just simply by telling me that you want things to be what they were it can happen.

I am just so disgusted at things....

I gave up on this relationship many years ago...

Its been too long...

I cant just simply act out just for YOU..

Or will be a situation where i have to fake it..

Do you realise how much I had to take week after week ...

Like I say I gave up..

I dont want to care..

If only I am allowed to ;

NOT care

My Life is so sad...