My life has never always been up. I've had my downs too. It is when you are down you know who are there to give you that little push. I really believe in this saying that God will not test us beyond what we are capable of. I have been tested and I can safely say that I come out a stronger woman. But I also learn that what ever happen to us has already been written by GOD even before we were in our mother's womb. We may pray to HIM but if so as HE has written that such should happen at such a time, it will happen. If HE should decide to grant our prayers, so it has also been written such that HE decide that HE will change our destiny.
But there are those who were once up there, who really spit on people like me, making us feel so low. Do we deserve all these? Now, you are going through what I went through in my early years of building up my family. I tried not to say it. But it just had to come out. "Hidup jgn suke buat jahat dgn orang" Now that its out.. more revelations came out. I have been keeping a lot of what I went through, what my husband and I went through to ourselves. I regret having to mention all these unnecessary thing that had long past. I should have just listened and kept quiet. No point to mentioned it. But sometimes its just so hard cos ple don't know what you went through.
Are all these meant to happen as written by GOD?
On a brighter note... my house has been busy and noisy. That's because I have 5 big children under 1 roof. 3 of mine plus Amir and Ayang. Today, I brought them to VIVO for lunch at the Chicken rice shop and later went swimming at JE Swimming pool. Bought KFC with whatever money that I have left on me plus $3.80 of coins. Really pai seh. A bit troublesome at VIVO cos Khairi was in a wheelchair which we got from the info. counter. They were pushing him at random speed, they were also sitting on him. Then I see a lot others in wheelchair but all old ple, the apeks and nyonyas. So kinda wierd seeing Khairi amongst this category of people.
I hope that Amir and Ayang who both live in Tampines will bring this alliance beyond JE. Hafiza's birthday was last Sunday. Have yet to get her a gift. Soon Fiza. Soon.
