Lessons

I realise that I've not bn updating for quite some time. Basically I'm just tired. Tired of everything. Let me update abt. work. O level results was release last week. The comment from those who cross my path was like Mdm.. 100% passes. You must be happy with the results. Of course I am delighted with the FN results. Both above nat. for 4E & 5N. But I share the same sentiment as some other teachers. Its that time of the year again where we waited eagerly for the results of our whole year's work. The tension, the stress. As one teacher put it. Mdm Im very tired of doing this every year. I really need a break. A breather? I ask. Yeah. But if not us then who? We've bn doing this year in year out. So he finally said.. Mdm I need counselling. Poor us. Can you imagine what its like to wait for the O level results every year. To worry for students like they are our own children. Every time the results were release, we got to shake hands with those who have done well and then again to just provide a shoulder for some others to cry one. Its really very straining. So am I happy with the results? As the person taking charge of C&T shd I be happy? I welcome the results with mixed feelings. Though some of teachers tell me that they will need to do a self reflection, I know I have to also. I need to do more. Much more. Its so heart wrenching to hear comments from other heads abt my dept. These are my teachers u are talking abt. I know them. Do you know them enough to make such uncalled remarks? Ssh. Congratulations to those who have achieved good results both students and teachers. But do remember that there must be humility in us. People will know our worth without us having to GLOAT on it. You lost your worth when you start to brag abt how good you are. To others, we will continue to work hard and not give up on these students. Students who have not done well, I am confident that our education system will not deprive any students from taking the next step further in their pursuit of their dreams. My 2008 batch of students were also eagerly waiting for the results. But I am so worried for this year. I am taking the whole of the express classes. This is not what I really want. But I look at it as there is no other choice. The constraints that I am facing this year wrt deployment. Can you imgine doing three rounds of coursework. Everytime I do coursework in the lab, some of these students are really testing my patience. Some of them really I feel need to review their options. You think that its so easy to get 100% pass when everytime u go to the lab, you choose to talk and laugh loudly. Mind you some of you shd not even be in sec 4. But you never learn from your mistake. And the constant remark like I left my thumbdrive at home, my thumbdrive with my fren blah blah... Then there are those who choose to refer to their fren's Cw when here I am just going through the exact work. Retarded rt? I can only think of one teacher who wld agree. Doing Cw can be really testing.. 2 hours of just cracking your brains on wt to write. However I hope my 4Es will persevere. Those who did not hv now left the class and are congregating either in the lib or the ram. I really hope they will utilise their time well. For those who hv decided not to drop these subjects, I do hope that you give your time and effort to the subject. As I saw my students today peeping at the countdown board..254 days to Os. Is there fear I see in you as the numbers get smaller or is it just a short knock on the head as you loose to the temptation of the internet as you work in the lab?

This week was also a busy week for the lower sec express classes as they are down for CIP. Busy making cookies for the old folks home. My poor teachers and Mani my kitchen aide was also tied up in the kitchen till almost 4.30 everyday. We've become professional prooduction line.

I managed to get some time to go swimming last week with my regular swimming cliques. I find these get-away sessions help me to relax and not to think so much of school. Really appreciate the people and the time we really put for each other to just chill. Last week , I was also at West Coast Park for the 'paint-a-litter-bin' competition. Was there with the art teachers and art students. Very very interesting. I like the way the students painted all the litter bins to give it the new look. Really innovative. Meet Mr Shawal there and we managed to catch up quite a bit. He looked bigger and he is now a father of three kids. His eldest will be in Pr 1 next year. Really..how time flies. It seem only like yesterday that we was still the VP of ZSS. Now P of JVS.

Second floor has been hectic for the past week. I've hd to endure alot of 'unexpected comments'. Sometimes I wonder if I am a good judge of character. Certain people whom I thought were my frens sometime somehow did not turn out as I expected them to be. And mind you this is not the first time that I've bn played out by frens.. or ple who I thought were my frens. Someone used to say this to me. 'Why you so old still kena played out'. Yah wt to do? I may be a bit too shallow and cant seem to see ple true colours. Then you know there are 'frens' who wld only look for me when they want something from me. Like sms-ing to ask for .. you got SOW for ....this and that. Maybe its just me. As the second floor is filled with more ple, you are exposed to more characters that makes you open your eyes and to ponder .. so these are the people that makes up the world. True life drama unreeling.

At home, hubby's activity has subsided as the Surabaya team left for home. So naturally he took off to be part of the sending off party. I managed to meet Ibu Nyai and the entourage the Tuesday before they left. They keep asking me if I willl go to Surabaya in March. Ive never got the chance to go before as the events that are happening there do not fall during a school holiday. Again feeling pissed. How to? Its not the school holiday. Can I go and leave my classes unattended. Do we teachers get to apply for leave apart from the school holidays? NO. So people if u think that you want to join the teaching profession, bear in mind. You don't have annual leave. Your leave is only the school holiday and that is also NOT the whole holiday. Because there will definitely be activities going on during the holidays which require you to be around. So you want to be a teacher?Make sure its because of your PASSION. But this time round, not as many ple are going for the annual visit. Not sure why. I also doubt if hubby is going. Stillwaiting for confirmation. In the meant time its back to normal routine. Religious classes on Monday as per normal. Nowadays I have the habit of asking him extreme questions. Questions that somehow annoys him. But he gives me annoying answers. Today I showed Nadia a new phone that I got thro some purchases that I've made. She looked at the home and give me that shocked look and say .. wt's wrong with u? why r u using this pathetic phone? I cldn't help but to laugh cos truly I feel so cheapo using a phone with no brand name. Oh sorry got brand. The brand is called bluetooth. Funny rt? Actually just to check her reaction.. so like OK this will be abt the same reaction I'm goin to get from others. Standard check lah. So immediately upon reaching school I immediately changed back to my normal NOKIA pink phone. Cheap thrill early Wed morning. Then today, my girls also told me that their frens found it wierd that when they are talking on the phone with me,that they are addressing their mother as YOU and they as I. But why so wierd? Thats the way we talk. Their frens always have this impression that they are talking to their boyfrens when actually they are talking to me. But is it so wierd when this is the way we addressed ourself. Not sure. Too casual maybe?
Today is also Sara Leana Joehann Aung's birthday Happy 7 years old. Auntie Jatt will try to get you a gift before you fly off to Myanmar. If not ..after that. Must remember.. Gift for SARA.