A New Day

2007 gone... however the memories of things that hit me still lingers. 2007 had bn an eventful year. Be it for work or family. So much happened that changed relationship between me and people around me. As I transfer all my data from 2007 diary to 2008, every month brings back memories of things that happened. My portfolio changed from SH to HOD and I recall how my scope of work suddenly changed when there was a regrouping. It is also this year that I finally completed my Degree programme. I can still remember how I struggled to balance my multiple roles of sch.ldrs, student, teacher, wife and mum not forgetting daughter. But alhamdullillah, I managed. Then there was also that once in a 'blue' moon holiday to Turkey with the whole family plus mum. I really spent a 'BOMB'. But I felt that it was worth it. I wonder if I wld ever get the opportunity to travel like such. On the other hand, things has not bn that rosy on the family front. Things happened between me and my in-laws. More unpleasant than pleasant. Naturally these events will hv its repercussion on my relationship with my dearest. After all they are his family. I hold to the belief that you can forgive but you cannot forget things that happened. Thus you learn through these experiences and you become wiser if I can say so. Your outlook in life changed especially in realtionship. As I flip through the pages of 2007 diary, there was an entry that says ' go in laws hse. FIL purposely not home'. Why? Nobody knows. All these unpleasant events. So childish and terlalu emoism. I remember feeling trapped and you juz want to get out.

Imagine you being in a cold environment that you juz sit there to fill space. So u become silent, lonely and start to be aloof. All these things that happened made me become a more cautious person. I reach a point that I dont want to give a damn. So much frustrations pent up that I am full of anger. Sarcasm became a part of my daily comments to things. Being cycnical was the new me. I was a changed person in 2007. But somehow, I toned down.. alot I shd say. Comes 2008, as I opened my msn, I wrote..A new beginning,start positive. I am determined to be POSITIVELY positive.

So I welcome 2008 with a big bang. I was at Vivo for the countdown. Not a bad show. Managed to bump into some familiar faces..ZSS students.

I start school feeling good but drained at the end of the day. I miss my 'old old students'. All the previous batches. This year 3 graduating classes. So far, the toughest lot. But I will persevere. I will try to live up to my motto: Do Not Procrastinate. Finish ASAP.

BTW: I think I want to change my blogskin. Must find time to do it.